Some Days Are Harder Then Others

Easter has come and gone. This first holiday without you. God definitely challenged us today. Since we are vaccinated we decided we would attend church, especially since they also were doing such a good job with masks and social distancing. When we got there the sanctuary was full and they had families going into the kids ministry area. We went and sat and after several minutes it occurred to me that we were surrounded by small children. I immediately felt panicked and felt overwhelmed with emotion. I could feel the tears began to break through, but I looked at your dad and he held me and told me he was right there and I felt better. We debated on leaving but decided we could get through this together and we did. Little Mae saw a small baby girl crawling on the ground, she smiled and awed and then immediately turned to ask if I was ok. We miss you so much. At bedtime your sister told me how she misses you so much and wishes that you were here with us; we all do.

Some days are harder then others and the past two days have been harder for me, this was surprising to me because I feel like I’ve been doing pretty well. I realize as time moves forward these holidays are going to be challenging without you, for all of us.

Missing you always,

Mommy